friendship

is about trust.
being a organizer is not easy. we need a team to help out in the whole programme so that it make thing easier for the organizer.
in a fa duty thing, we have to work as a team.
same goes to friendship.
when you all say you all are free and ended up one by one are all not free, it disappointed me.
i tell myself, i trust all of you so much and yet i'm hurt again.
do it again.
last minute all say i cannot go or i watching movies with other people want go.
is not i want go a not. is just like i trust you guy so much and yet you guys just don't tell me if you all dun want to go or what.
too disappointing in you guys.
i bet, next time, there may never be a coffee chat. school are starting and everyone is busy with their schooling already .
well, i think you guys just dun trust the the whole lots of the people.
if you trust, the whole lots of us will be so scatter and also will be contact.
saying you will be there for me, where are you.
i seem to be strong but i'm not.
getting screw going rc by mum is already so stress.
on the another hand, i have to face this.
i know i'm at fault too.
but y can't you all just put yorself in my shoes.
going out?
forget it la.
it may never be a whole group thing.
i try my best planning for it already.
but what you all put in?
haix.even if i emo or what, no one will be there for me because i cannot even reach for you guys.
you all are just too far like i'm the ground and you guys are the planet.

emo,
Noel