i'm confuse.

i'm telling myself this
from young why do i tell myself this,
"i want to join rc, i want to be a nurse."
right now i still cannot find the solution.
i'm getting more and more fraustration and till i've found out that,
researching work can save people over time.
i'm still thinking y i wanna be nurse.
if i can't find my motive of becoming a nurse, i've definately have no mood to study.
no motivation to keep me moving on.

god. how i wish that i could just know what i want and stop emoing.
think this psychology prob might nt be cure over a day.
it can only recover till i've found the reason.

incase anyone don't know this disease,
it is spinocerebellar atrophy.
there's currently still no cure for this disease yet.
and the symtoms is,
might just fall without using the elbow and block,
thus it's directly fall and just hit onto your head
and also might ended up no strength to walk followed by using wheelchair to move and than will not be able to talk and might ended up lying in the bed till die.

Scientific terms

Spinocerebellar ataxia (SCA) is one of a group of genetic disorders characterized by slowly progressive incoordination of gait and often associated with poor coordination of hands, speech, and eye movements. Frequently, atrophy of the cerebellum occurs.
As with other forms of ataxia, SCA results in unsteady and clumsy motion of the body due to a failure of the fine coordination of muscle movements, along with other symptoms.
The symptoms of the condition vary with the specific type (there are several), and with the individual patient. Generally, a person with ataxia retains full mental capacity but may progressively lose physical control.
There is no known cure for spinocerebellar ataxia, which is a progressive disease (it gets worse with time), although not all types cause equally severe disability.
Treatments are generally limited to softening symptoms, not the disease itself. The condition can be irreversible. A person with this disease will usually end up needing to use a wheelchair, and eventually they may need assistance to perform daily tasks.
The treatment of incoordination or ataxia, then mostly involves the use of adaptive devices to allow the ataxia individual to maintain as much independence as possible. Such devices may include a cane, crutches, walker, or wheelchair for those with impaired gait; devices to assist with writing, feeding, and self cares if hand and arm coordination is impaired; and communication devices for those with impaired speech.
Many patients with hereditary or idiopathic forms of ataxia have other symptoms in addition to ataxia. Medications or other therapies might be appropriate for some of these symptoms, which could include tremor, stiffness, depression, spasticity, and sleep disorders, among others.
Both onset of initial symptoms and duration of disease can be subject to variation. If the disease is caused by a polyglutamine trinucleotide repeat CAG expansion, a longer expansion may lead to an earlier onset and a more radical progression of clinical symptoms.
anyway,
i'm so sad la. i feel brave for the people. seriously.
strong enough to face the world.


sadly,
noelle

26 APRIL 2008

this is a day where NR0825 got to SHS captain ball compeitition and get 2nd.
good job team.
special thanks to: hafiz, junde, cheng feng, fara, huiting and gita

p/s the guys are really good at it.


some senior was cheating in the compeitition by not standing3 feet away from us.
group get so fed up. feel like trashing him up,
anyway, who say NR0825 will never bond?
OGLs you are so wrong.
we motivate each other no matter we win or lose and that's the spirit,


went for disaster management talk after compeitition.
got some wooloo surprise thing with cc and we feel stress.
rc is always the one lightening my life.
cause i've nt done finish my project which is going to exp. in 1 week time,
i'd not go join them for dinner
it's time for me to do project.

1 litre of tears is a super damn nice show.
i believe i've lose 1 litre of my tear yesterday night.
its a high recommended show.
so watch it.

dearest,

Noelle ^.^

NYP life

it was a interesting one. However my NR0825 are going as a few clique .
however, we are getting more and more bonded.
still have crappy time with farhana, jaslyn and benedicta.
whenever they sit on the place i sit before, they will just go insane.
however, certain things are bad.

NOEL IS GETTING EMO ONCE AGAIN.
due to some reason.
if you were siyun and aihui, you will guess it without thinking.

from this, i learn that never say something that is opposite of what you are thinking because other people would not understand.
think twice before you talk is now my MOTTO.

mr wu jia hui came to our school today for mini concert.
went with benedicta and
Noted: jaslam was super damn high. she seems to forget to eat her medicine.

photo taken from jas.


Well, i'm waiting for all the rc event to come. the only place that make me happy and stop emo is at rc.but den, clique are all good people too.

saturday there's inter shs captain ball tournament and i'm involve.
YOHOO
but i dunno whether can a not cause our class still lack of 1 people. quite disappointed.
now name on the team is only these few.
1. Farah
2. Huiting
3. Cheng Feng
4. Jun De
5. Hafiz
6. Noel(which is me la)
7. still in vacancy

and there's also blood donation drive at nyp today.
the claim they are doing for redcross.
but i didn't see anyone familiar. LOLS.
but rc banner are all over. so happy.

since i've stop loving to take photo, i currently don't take photo la.

these are the photo in Art Fest 08 group photo


can you find me?
sure bo.
okay next.

full-u photo in PAC (promotion and award ceremony)

with some of the 0707 n my vi mate 0908.

anyway, derek sir say i look like jorin ma'am in any of the way.
but shing hwee ma'am say i don't
so hopefully, he can stop calling me jorin ma'am sister and also got stune and tot i'm jorin ma'am.

and also, i definately have a great fun with
shu ting ma'am, jingni ma'am and limin ma'am and
Kian Khoon sir, Chee yong sir and also ambrose sir and
also the poor banker and afidah
in playing game together on last sat at hippo.
and the celebration went successful too.

NOTED: VI JACKET IS TOO BIG FOR ME.

who want L and have a size of M please kindly change with me man.

noelle

NOEL IS SO UPSET TODAY

i wanna go for CLUB CRAWL
tbuy my tootpid sandle went disobedien and spoilt.
eek. hate it man.
now i'm confuse which cca to join. WTH,
school nt that smooth today and i'm totally speechless to say my cadet.
so just keep quiet.

have a great time with friend and jas today.
her friend so chio la. wth.

noelle

NYP LIFE

cca there was nothing. everything was so bored.
thought of going the cca julia ma'am are in.
but i didn't see her in the photo.
bet she's not going cca that often too.
thinking of joining NYP pal. perhaps tml bahx.

lesson on critical thinking is so so bored and i'm half alsleep.
jaslyn and benedicta also say they are falling alsleep.
looks like its really bored.
have been learning module like psychology and sociology.
jas might be jealous cause i learn PSYCHOLOGY
farhana keep saying i'm mean.
and to be true, I'M NOT MEAN

my class are separate into 4 team.
1. mine which was laughing one
2. POPULAR ONE
3. fashionable one
4. out going one.

and angie claim that she know tt L.C.C.
OMG>>> people call him LCC instead of CC.

gotta be busy with studying. too much ICA and things liddat.
i don't understand BIOLOGY and i've to study like hell.


Busy,
noelle

STARDUST

this is this year SHS orientation theme.
well, i've a great day with Benedicta, Farhana, Jaslyn and Chitra.
had 3 boys and 17 girls in the class.
Everyone was okay.
WE ARE TOO QUIET.
okay. even today jaslyn,benedicta and farhana claim that i'm crazy TOO!
am i really crazy sometime?
anyway, make new friend there and i think i'm gonna make friend with everyone.
happy sia.
and one of my classmate came from ITE.
wahseh. experience liao la. die le. hopeless going NUS.
nvm gt SIM.
WAHAHA

well, i'm having busy schedule when school start.
can't really go out shopping le.
i've been ask by my OGL to be a vice dunno wad shit de. i dpn't even know and i just say yes.
WTH. now think again i dun even know wad was the post.
its all BLANK !!

anyway, my OGL is such a nice people.
cai yun in yr 3 and erico or spell as eriko and also a.. dunno his name la they help us alot in amazing race.
NICE PEOPLE
i'm crazy.
anyway, i got THERMOMETER IN ORIENTATION BAG !
AND I LOVE SHS SHIRT.

anyway, i play a game and suay suay my group tio the putting ur face in flour and look for mentor and use mouth to take out. so disgusted and i'm the first who try it.
GOD DAMN.
my face all white. clean up and nth seems to be happening .
BUT
what if tml i got PIMPIM? i will DIE MAN!!
show u my ending time for each day
week 1
monday : 9am- 5pm.
tuesday: 9am-6pm
wednesday: 9am- 2.50pm
thursday: 9am- 5pm
friday: 10.10am- 1.50pm

GO DRAGO !!

dearest,
noelle

YEAH.
i started the same title as siyun.
school orientation and follow up by school starting tomorrow.
i'm telling myself this, no matter good or bad, i;m going my way.
meeting new friend or not, its through fate.
getting more excited..
i'm going out with lk to buy some of my starting school stuff and i brought new balance inspire 5 with mummy.
cheap lor. its only 79 bucks.
what i've left and not buying before school start.
1. bag pack - the one i want OOS again.
2. bottom - can't find the one i ideal most.

what i'm buying today
1. a nice cover note book
2. pen? i think i misplace all my colour pen during O level.

actually nothing much.
that's all

talk about orientation tomorrow.

happy kia
noelle

hahas, i'm finally bak.
my com are fix and i bet the company; acer, gave us a new computer.
anyway, i'm currently busy chionging maple since school are starting soon and i would not be able to play with computer game again.
nowaday, i'm seriously mad about japan show and i just don't know why.

went back to school today.
supposely, there should be a training of wrcd in our school.
however, due to the rain, they started planning the camp proposal and also the sport day concept paper.
surprisingly, the senior know their work. that's great.
when we went in the rc room after all the planning work are done,
i'm super upset.
seeing all the trophy fall from the top of the admin table make me so upset and i cried unnoticed.
untill i found out i'm crying, people in the room had already noticed.
seeing all the trophy fall is like how people think of rc.
out of sudden, i feel so insulted.
i feel that the person that throw the trophy down to the ground seriously hate rc alot.
feeling so insulted for the day, the both vi went angry and we make a change in rc room.
changing all the rules and regulation are not a choice to anybody as all these thing had happpen.
maybe nco might go look for mr.tina in a one fine day telling him this.
"MR TINA, WE WANT TO CHANGE THE WINDOW TO THE SLIDE ONE"
"YOU THINK THE SCHOOL VERY RICH IS IT?"
"WE ARE WILLING TO FORT OUT SOME MONEY IF YOU AGREE." showin the broken trophy
"HM... HAVE TO SEE HOW. I CANNOT SAY A YES"
and as you guys know mr tina, he will sure say NO.

have to go to work late due to packing of rc room.
wanted to call sook fung to tell her i'll be late for work.
but i seem to forget that i got 2 thai express number in my phone and i just call.
the strange thing was, mr wan ming answer and he down there make me more blur. bad guy arz. he just came back from malaysia.
wa. come back den got mood make people. haix.
he say in a making me blurer way that make me think that..
"SHIT! I CALLED THE WRONG OUTLET" god bless.
so i called kovan outlet and sook fung wasn't happy at all.
i leave school around 6.15 and manage to reach there at time.
i reach there around 6.30. it's just i took 9 min to prepared.
anyway, i still don't like the way kovan people do their thing
1. once they busy, you ask them sth also useless.
2.they did not have a meeting at a time slot to say what is available for the day.
3. teach me mop the floor without using broom to sweep. just like what wendy ma ma say, shit without taking off the pants.
and many more. shall not criticise since i'm not very good also.

miss II they all like shit and she's going malaysia soon for a month.
WTH! A MONTH!! who gonna sms with me when i'm bored due to work?

helping my friend to look for rent.
she's looking for a room to rent. price not more than 400 bucks
place is more towards north district like angmokio, hougang, sengkang.
so any details please sms me.
thank lots.


lastly, won't be back so soon.


dearest,
noelle (the girl with a boy name. so LAME la. sir!)