way back home,
flowing of tears while walking,
slowly, i know that i've lost the noel that i once know.

it's just so hard to please people that you cherish.
sylvia, your morning sms seriously cheer up my life.
but i'm sorry that i'm emo at the later part


An sms i send to aihui a few minutes back
" I just realise whenever i tried to talk and cheer myself out, people around me don't like it.
And so i was asked to shut up so that they can have peace.
when going back home, people always drive me home. i feel so useless.
i'm tired of all this, struggling something that is no longer the ME "

maybe aihui is right. i'm just trying hard to be one of them.
but now, i'm really tired.

and lastly, i hate being ignored.
from now on, i know. i'll just shut up, listen and give no comment.
no one would ever know how i feel because you're not me.
i'd not change. is just that i'm just trying to be that someone that is not me.
you guys will never understand.
I'm just tired.

and i know when the time is right, someone will appreciate me.
i'll wait for the one to appear.

Have been emo-ing recently.
I'm sick. leg pain, hypotension is back.
this is freaking horrible lo.

just finish watching 钟無艳。
从那里学到了这句话。
永远不要以貌取人。

For once, i feel so lost of words.
When i finally stop and look at others,
i feel that everyone is moving on.
and me, stonning there. It's so hard to move on.

When i ask myself from sitting one end to aother end in a bus trip,
that was the only time i don't feel dizzy.
didn't know how bus trip can be so interesting when there's friend around.

Lastly, songs again
我知道
BY2

作詞：于萱 作曲：于萱

從來沒想過 不能再和你牽手
委屈時候沒有你 陪著我心痛
一切都是我 太過驕縱 以為你會懂
一直忘了說 我有多感動


#我知道你還是愛著我
雖然分開的理由 我們都已接受

你知道我會有多難過
所以即使到最後 還微笑著要我加油

我知道你還放不下我
才會在離開時 閉著眼沒有回頭
我們都知道彼此心中 其實這份愛沒停過

Repeat *

曾經完整幸福的夢 在腦海裡頭
我多希望你 還在我左右

Repeat #

我知道你還放不下我
才會在離開時 閉著眼沒有回頭
答應你我會好好過 不讓這些眼淚白流

再見說在額頭 原來淚也會痛　
倒流心中怎麼麻醉也沒用

深呼吸一分鐘 愛突然的詞窮
你狠狠甩開我沉默的手彷彿就劇終

草戒指在手中 像句點的沉默
明天 以後 愛變成了問候

愛不愛都痛 我以為我懂 最後你要自由
忘了溫柔要套在手中 到最後
該不該回頭 如果我開口 愛繼續往前走
幸福聽著分開的藉口

再見說在額頭 原來淚也會痛　
倒流心中怎麼麻醉也沒用

深呼吸一分鐘 愛突然的詞窮
你狠狠甩開我沉默的手彷彿就劇終

草戒指在手中 像句點的沉默
明天 以後 愛變成了問候

愛不愛都痛 我以為我懂 最後你要自由
忘了溫柔要套在手中 到最後
該不該回頭 如果我開口 愛繼續往前走
幸福聽著分開的藉口

哦~~

愛不愛都痛 我以為我懂 最後你要自由
忘了溫柔要套在手中 到最後
該不該回頭 如果我開口 愛繼續往前走
幸福聽著分開的藉口
草戒指套在誰的手中

The more you want to BREAKFREE,
the harder it is.


I enjoy the bus ride today.
Though everyone is tired, but we insist of taking the bus ride.
the song i've listen is very nice.

Today was in car and DJ desiree lai said something like
It's happy saturday.
But i don't.
batchmate is so full of LOVE and i know they won't mind me being there.
But i mind.
I mind being so bright,
i mind being noisy in the car,
i mind asking all sort of meaning wih regards to vulgarities.

Like what Miss Chia said,
It's time to grow up.

i keep reminding myself,
no matter what, i will not cry there.
i'll be strong.

and when time come, i'll ask the question why.
why when someone always said it won't happen,
it always did.

As time goes by,
i feel that i'm deproving alot in my skills.
i'm afraid to tell myself noel, you're not as good as before
when you dance, you're not happy as before
you just do it because you need to.

was discussing with my mother.
telling her i don't feel as happy as compare to at clare class.
and i miss her class. that's for sure. :(
i lost touch with the feeling.
the feeling of dancing.
it has somehow become a burden to me.
i'm afraid to tell myself
"noel you dance just for a moment. after that, you don't love dance any more"
i'm lost.
until i have time to go walk around singapore and get back my motivation for dance first.

while walking home, i almost get knock out by car.
i asked myself if i never "SIAM" the car, i will really be in hospital by now,
not at home blogging and everything.
i might just gone.
what if i'm gone?
how will my family member feel?
will any of my friends ever know i'm in hospital now?
will anyone ever notice that i'm missing?
dam. i'm freaking emo.


i just needa cool down.

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
You sorrow shows ,Yes it shows
No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there ,But then I let you go
And now it's only fair,That I should let you know
What you should know
I can't live, If living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore
I can't live, If living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore
Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
You sorrow shows,Yes it shows
I can't live, If living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore
I can't live, If living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore
I can't live, If living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore

Yes, no doubt. in the past i usde to laugh at people who wear leggings and i called them the
猪八戒gang.
but i seriously have got no idea why i would want to try legging.
maybe i got tired of what i'm wearing.
just wanted to try something new.

Now my wardrobe is catagorize under these cat
- Red Cross Shirt
- Dance attire
- JAPALAN HOME CLOTHES
- tee shirt which i don't wear
- shirt that i always wear until i'm tired of it.

i'm feeling bored with myself. should i get short hair? or remain it as long?

noel choong

I really HATE sitting in the bus alone.
this is the time where your thinking will go "haywire"- thanks kenny for the sp.
sometime,
it goes emo
it goes sleepy
it goes tired
it goes happy
it goes interesting.
but guess what, emo is always to me.
all i can do is say hi and come with your stupid thought now noel.

Have you ever wonder how you used to be is not the one you use to know?
for me yes. i remembered tellling my girl i won't do this and that.
but in the end i did.
was thinking have has been thru me
and suddenly i feel that i don't belong to any.
I'M LOST in somewhere.
somewhere where i can't even find myself.


i'm tired and lost.
save me...

I♥YOGHURT
it has always been my all time favourite.
no matter which brand of yoghurt i ate.
and the picture today shows the amazing yoghurt that i've open.
the top layer of the yoghurt will always stick together with the top wrapping and ended up throwing in the bin together.
but, i get to eat it today because it seems like the top layer love the container more. :)

Recently, i've bad time management which get scolded by friends
who can't seems to take it anymore
can't be bother to stop me with bad time management anymore.
and i got my lesson.
due to this, i flung my nursing lab practical.
it's like shit. i always pass the difficult one and flung the easy one.
sometime i just don't get it. maybe it's easy that's why i got it negleted.

anyway, the NDP song this year is damn nice by corrinne may !!

i've gain something in life within these few days.
let it go and it will do me good. :)
i did !



counting down to TBG in 2 days time.♥
noelchoong

i HEART you 0908 ! :d
i just feel like saying it at this moment, this time.
3rd years anniversary is coming and let keep it moving till the end of our life.

L- is for the way you LOOK at me
O- is for the ONLY one i see
V- is VERY VERY, extraordinary
E- is EVEN more than anyone that you adore.

destress and everything today together with my high-ness.
that's so typical noel.
anw, i'm super lost now.
SAdance pract, FB pract, flashmob pract, and redcross event
i did well for none. goodness.
MAJOR paper ended and i'm feeling shit right now for screwing my final year.

lastly,
爱一个人不一定要拥有他。
而是只要他开心一切就够了。

noelchoong :)