i'm confuse.

i'm telling myself this
from young why do i tell myself this,
"i want to join rc, i want to be a nurse."
right now i still cannot find the solution.
i'm getting more and more fraustration and till i've found out that,
researching work can save people over time.
i'm still thinking y i wanna be nurse.
if i can't find my motive of becoming a nurse, i've definately have no mood to study.
no motivation to keep me moving on.

god. how i wish that i could just know what i want and stop emoing.
think this psychology prob might nt be cure over a day.
it can only recover till i've found the reason.

incase anyone don't know this disease,
it is spinocerebellar atrophy.
there's currently still no cure for this disease yet.
and the symtoms is,
might just fall without using the elbow and block,
thus it's directly fall and just hit onto your head
and also might ended up no strength to walk followed by using wheelchair to move and than will not be able to talk and might ended up lying in the bed till die.

Scientific terms

Spinocerebellar ataxia (SCA) is one of a group of genetic disorders characterized by slowly progressive incoordination of gait and often associated with poor coordination of hands, speech, and eye movements. Frequently, atrophy of the cerebellum occurs.
As with other forms of ataxia, SCA results in unsteady and clumsy motion of the body due to a failure of the fine coordination of muscle movements, along with other symptoms.
The symptoms of the condition vary with the specific type (there are several), and with the individual patient. Generally, a person with ataxia retains full mental capacity but may progressively lose physical control.
There is no known cure for spinocerebellar ataxia, which is a progressive disease (it gets worse with time), although not all types cause equally severe disability.
Treatments are generally limited to softening symptoms, not the disease itself. The condition can be irreversible. A person with this disease will usually end up needing to use a wheelchair, and eventually they may need assistance to perform daily tasks.
The treatment of incoordination or ataxia, then mostly involves the use of adaptive devices to allow the ataxia individual to maintain as much independence as possible. Such devices may include a cane, crutches, walker, or wheelchair for those with impaired gait; devices to assist with writing, feeding, and self cares if hand and arm coordination is impaired; and communication devices for those with impaired speech.
Many patients with hereditary or idiopathic forms of ataxia have other symptoms in addition to ataxia. Medications or other therapies might be appropriate for some of these symptoms, which could include tremor, stiffness, depression, spasticity, and sleep disorders, among others.
Both onset of initial symptoms and duration of disease can be subject to variation. If the disease is caused by a polyglutamine trinucleotide repeat CAG expansion, a longer expansion may lead to an earlier onset and a more radical progression of clinical symptoms.
anyway,
i'm so sad la. i feel brave for the people. seriously.
strong enough to face the world.


sadly,
noelle