Once you see momo, it is actually name after

IT'S MO MO DAY !!

okay. i'm abit mo mo i swear.
how can i be back in this mood as fast as i thought?
today was celebrating sis'jasmine birthday wif minyi and yun
but it dun seems to be a pleasant one.
you guys know what happen last night.
but i still enjoy it.
meet up with junior, jasmine cheah and cheejean
i was stonning all alone.
seeing the cadet improvement and everything make me worth being a vi.
well, think my batchmate. stephen will be proud of it too.
junior praise us infront on me of our effort done after the pass down of senior.
i'm damn touch.
at least our hardwork is pay off.
omg. tears are dropping off ahead.

i'm trusting all my reader.
so, dun disappoint me.

Redcross in sec life
remember the amount of breakdown i have, the mia-ing of vicechair and everything.
really appreciate everyone during that time.
if nt i would also be a mia cadet.
how tough was all the work done that time.
how many time i wanna give up and yet the encouragement by peer.
appreciate lots.
how can 2 people hang on to whole unit?
whenever i think of this, i'll just have tears flowing down.
in VIP, and now.

Secondary School life
it wasn't easy in my school life too.

Sec 1 and 2
a loner for 2 years is definately nt a easy life for me to adapt in sec1 and sec2.
remember the time being verbally abuse and everything, it simply dun feel good.
being a girl who always being call a bull dog?
no doubt i'm round at that time and so am i now. but at least better.
but it is really hard for me to accept my life.
remember the time i went back home and cry.
no fail that i will cry everyday.
its like a habit, a appointment that...
that noel choong will cry everytime she reach home because of school
attitude change from then on.
i've close friend and buddy but i ended losing all of them in sec 3.
MY TRUST TO THEM WAS MY MISTAKE.
some of them they betray me

Sec3 and 4
i though i'll change my life. but i dun seems to be happening in this case.
getting sick of school in first 2 year, it make me feel worthless going school for next 2 year.
i get sick of going to school
i dun get much friend too.
i stop going together with my sec 1&2 friend.
feel left out.
have a silent quarrel with jas which i also dunno what had happen
i know some might be adding salt.
but i wanna say thankyou agnes.
thanks for trying to patch us up.
u rules.
i always have no chance to say thank to u.
i sucess.
we talk. but not as close as before.
being a loner in recess during a period of time.
the time where i feel that time had just stop.
how i wish it move faster.
till then my sis' came
i found the friend where i can confine my trust and everything to them
i think i should post their name here.
Aihui, Leekiang and Sandhya.
at that time was already may.
how fast my loner life pass.
if they didn't approach me, i would still be a loner by then.
trust and promise in them was safe.
its like i've found a house/family that's in school.
i can confine them with my worry and its keep secretly.
they are those few that gain my trust.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS!
WE ARE HOUGANG GANG !!!
sec4, being close to siyun thru geography class and follow up,
friendship with jas are much more stable and i know minyi after that.
JAS, SiYun and MinYi
they are the sengkang gang.
being close to them, i spend most of my emo-ing period before o lvl with them.
and i remember i have my emo-ing from march to after o.mid nov.
i know all the sister, aihui, leekiang, sandhya, jas, siyun and minyi have a tough time with me when i'm emoing in night study and mother tongue class.
we always went outside and sing chinese song.
and minyi, i miss ZAIZAI the book.
and YEZI!!
a tough time indeed,
if nt all those i've gone through, i might not be able to find all the friend.
i treasure them and i wun let anything happen to them i swear.!

my road to VIP and VI life
a tough choice to join vip and i've never expect myself to join.
i;ve ask around and found some people who are interested.
so i told myself to give it a try.
well, these people arz...
1.darren
2, paulina
3. Mathew
arz.. these peoplearz.. say want join den motivate us untill we try and these people don't want to go.
how horrible esp. mathew.bleh! =P my ulp mate arz..

went vip together with stephen, afidah my dear ulp a3, yirui and chinkheng.
shermaine who suppose to join us ignore our call on that morning.
was abit disappointing.
but the best thing was to see joyce and fion there.
and chin kheng was same group as me. bleah =P
hans.. the hans shop who eat alot in camp unity.
however, he seems to eat less in VIP.
camp i'm very quiet.
i went for interview and remember how my mentor told me about my performance.
i know i'm quiet lar.
and i spend my 1st minute of my birthday in VIP day3 debrief by my comment after the day of cheif trainer interview.
i remember of discouraging the push up in parade ground as i hurt my knee.
den all of them was asking me, noel what happen. u talk soo much.
last day, i put in courage to go for minute speech and i cried.
yes. i was talking about my unit.
and thanks to all.
and some betrayer arh. call them dun say my birthday still say.
but too bad. anyway that person get sabotage.
make friend along the way and some drop out.
but, they will still be my batchmate for life.
vip retreat i wasn't there.
i'm sick. blaming myself y.
y do i get sick at such a lousy timing.
lastly, I LOVE VIP 09/08

NYP NURSING
i trust them. but they betray me.
that's how i'm everytime i went to new school.
always gt betray.
end up the one who is the wrong one.
maybe thats my life
its always like that.
i'll try to hang on.
but as i go into my limit, i dunno what will happen

~the end~

i wondering how many ml of fluid i lost in this post.
OMG. and i kill tree.
feeling better now.
that's my life.
how am i suppose to TRUST people anymore.
i dun have the faith anymore.
i'm just scared the more i trust, the more i'll get hurt...
getting a flash back is the most scary thing ever.

Special thanks
hey, thanks for the talk ytd.
i think you do make a point out of it batchmate/squadmate/schoolmate/classmate
i'll see how.

and thankyou. u make me smile from mo mo .
a thousand thanks to you.
stop worrying.i dun want you to get affected okay.
i'm also scared you get mo mo.
CHILL!!

and to all the sis' i love. thanks for being around me when i really need help there.
u brought my darkness into lightness.
all i can say is I LOVE YOU SISTERS'!!

oh ya!!
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP ANNIVERSARY MY HOUGANG GANG !!!

&

HAPPY BIRHTDAY YU HUI MA'AM !!

&

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA MA'AM

i dun feel like going to work. should i quit?

eye swollen but feel better
noelle