HEY,
i've finally make blogskin after a year.
well, do give me comment on what to improve on ya?

i'm too lazy to upload the photo and video i took today and
i don't feel like going first aid duty tomorrow
but i can't do this when i've already sign up
somemore batchmate,classmate.. is the LO for this.
BUT seriously,
i need some rest.
i'm tired.
nothing can express the feeling i'm having now.
i don't know why, but i feel so disappointedin myself.
i'm confuse
i'm ....
no word can ever express this kind of feeling.

schooling side
YES. NYP, YOU SARK !!
yes. i got no doubt your nursing is good.
but practical only 4hr per week.
you are so @ss that you make us study for paper and paper.
you are so sarky to make your student study all the e-learning and none of those came out.

Redcross side.
NO DOUBT.
i love you more than mylife.
but, you know what?
after doing all the duty, i feel that within a year,
i learn nothing.
i encounter nothing.
i'm somehow lost.
and i think the flame within me...
just so disappointed but yet happy.

sorry for the inconvenient cause.


myself
i'm useless in everything.
mum always say you are so useless.
"fan lai zhang kou, qian lai sheng shou"
meaning, you do nothing and take out your hand and get money.
no courage within me.
i sark.
i never ask alot from myself.
think back, the expectation within me is long lost
since i ended my secondary life.
i got alot to say.
but i just can't say it here.
you will never know a stranger is reading your blog
and think you are just an idiot.

back to reality.
when you need help, like borrow money as you are jobless,
how many people will actually say
i'll lend you money
and not
you know arz, my bank account with my mum
or what evershit and i can't
how many time when you breakdown
and need someone to be there with you and
they are just not there.
wanna share all the emotion with people,
they are just busy with alot of thing.
and what you can do?
put it within your heart and ...
and take it alone.
how many people actually tell you that
they will be there to listen to us but they are not.

i'm just too confuse.
ignore what i've mention.
the people does not mean anyone.

and you know how singaporean work?
they simply sark.
the are blind and deaf.
i was in this bloody bus on my way home and i was the first to rang the bell.
den the next fellow go press again when its getting nearer.
nevermind. twice only
then i bloody person so press one more time.
i was feeling this.
DON"T YOU HAVE A EYE TO SEE THE LIGHT IS ON?
ARE YOU THAT DEAF THAT YOU CAN'T HEAR THE BELL RANG TWICE ?

i'm just too.. yesterday since it pass 12.
hope i'll be back on the next 0000hr.

sorry that i've use all the bloody, you sark,@ss and whatever in today post
i'm just too disappointing in myself that i
i don't talk to people who are so close to me.
bet its better for me to ...

noelle