i've been living in the lie for so long,
its long until i don't even know myself,
long until a trust that exist has never exist before.
no one there to listen to me anymore,
no one is there for me.
for a few mth,
we stop talking.
stop contacting.
i wondering what's wrong.
something that i really can't figure out.
in and out telling me to trust or what,
but you just walk out liddat.
if thats the case,
i rather you never say trust that word in front of me.
would never open the door again i swear.

anyway, there's really no one to go to.
feel so so loner.
i know that no one will be there for me anymore.
when ever people say that you still have me,
it's always a lie.
i rather stay in fantasy and not wake up.

i wanna thanks hwee hoon for going with me today,
eventhough she's late, but i appreciate it.
at least she make the effort in meeting me.
sometime, i asked myself.
are you all really the friend i'm close with?
i can't give an answer for it.
can someone just say i'll be there for you whenever you dun feel good?
i was hoping someone will say that to me.
i think i'm jsut too naive
naive to think of that.
because whenever i dun feel good and contact people one way or another,
they seems far, busy.

makeup will never exist because you hurt me once, twice, ...

people have been walking in and out of my life.
sometime i'm wondering this,
who will be the one that rally leave their contact behind for me?