As time goes by,
i feel that i'm deproving alot in my skills.
i'm afraid to tell myself noel, you're not as good as before
when you dance, you're not happy as before
you just do it because you need to.

was discussing with my mother.
telling her i don't feel as happy as compare to at clare class.
and i miss her class. that's for sure. :(
i lost touch with the feeling.
the feeling of dancing.
it has somehow become a burden to me.
i'm afraid to tell myself
"noel you dance just for a moment. after that, you don't love dance any more"
i'm lost.
until i have time to go walk around singapore and get back my motivation for dance first.

while walking home, i almost get knock out by car.
i asked myself if i never "SIAM" the car, i will really be in hospital by now,
not at home blogging and everything.
i might just gone.
what if i'm gone?
how will my family member feel?
will any of my friends ever know i'm in hospital now?
will anyone ever notice that i'm missing?
dam. i'm freaking emo.


i just needa cool down.