way back home,
flowing of tears while walking,
slowly, i know that i've lost the noel that i once know.

it's just so hard to please people that you cherish.
sylvia, your morning sms seriously cheer up my life.
but i'm sorry that i'm emo at the later part


An sms i send to aihui a few minutes back
" I just realise whenever i tried to talk and cheer myself out, people around me don't like it.
And so i was asked to shut up so that they can have peace.
when going back home, people always drive me home. i feel so useless.
i'm tired of all this, struggling something that is no longer the ME "

maybe aihui is right. i'm just trying hard to be one of them.
but now, i'm really tired.

and lastly, i hate being ignored.
from now on, i know. i'll just shut up, listen and give no comment.
no one would ever know how i feel because you're not me.
i'd not change. is just that i'm just trying to be that someone that is not me.
you guys will never understand.
I'm just tired.

and i know when the time is right, someone will appreciate me.
i'll wait for the one to appear.