I've
try very hard to tell myself
try very hard to convince myself
try very hard to ignore what people think
but yet,
why does those small little stuff that people say to me affect me so much?

why does it always like that?
when i start to rebuild my confident on myself,
someone will say that i'm fugly.
i know i'm.
but in a denial state.
but why must you all just tell me again that i'm...
i'm fugly?

lex, lk take hard time to tell me that i'm not really fugly,
that i'm just normal,
that they pull me out of my emo-ness
but i'm sorry guys, i'm back to my emoness.

tried very hard these 4years, from fat to normal weight and etc.
try so hard but nothing seems to pay off.
still as fugly.

confident is dropping aas though
i'm falling off from a building
and i'm just...........